Decisions, Decisions

The cable company jacked up all their prices and, for some reason, Internet only now costs the exact same as Internet + Basic Cable. I suspect the jack-up in price is a ploy to get me to upgrade my Internet-only service by adding a few channels to my TV lineup, thereby making me hungry for more. Sure, I have TBS and I can watch all the Seinfeld and Friends reruns I want, but all my friends have Basic 2 Cable, which means they have Bravo and are watching The Real Housewives of Orange County.

"Oh, you haven't seen it? You gotta watch it. What do you mean you don't have Bravo? I thought you said you had cable."

I just can't justify the cost of going with Basic 2 Cable, though. It's like another $15.00 a month. However, I totally went for the Basic Cable trick (which is the same price as just Internet, remember) and had the cable guy over here a couple of days ago to install it. Amber and D were also here to help me kill time during the 3-hour appointment window.

So the guy gets here, does what he has to do, then passes me his phone number in the kitchen before he leaves. Why? He says he can come back in a few weeks and juice me up to Basic 2 Cable for free. But he has to wait a while, since the cable company comes out to follow up on installation appointments to, of course, make sure their guys aren't juicing up customers for free.

So here's the question: Do I call the guy in a couple of weeks?

It's certainly not an ethics issue; I don't give a God damn about the cable company not getting the extra $15.00 per month from me, especially after jacking prices up so much in the first place. My problem with calling the cable guy is that I totally wasn't attracted to him, and I don't want to do anything besides buy him a beer or two in exchange for his extra services. What if he takes a real shine to me? Not only does the guy know where I live, but he knows what kind of locks I have on the doors.

Cultural References

I just saw an Arby's commercial with a pretty obvious Seinfeld reference. Have you seen that one? "They're real, and they're spectacular."

Is it just me, or are Seinfeld references are like a second language that everybody speaks? My spell check doesn't even flag "Seinfeld".

Alone

Every living creature on Earth dies alone. That's how it goes, right? It seems like such a sad thing to think about, but I actually get great relief just from saying it out loud.

Every living creature on Earth dies alone.

Some of us are born apart from others. Not close to our mothers, not close to our fathers. Too young or too old to connect with our siblings, if they're even still alive. Two or three friends, no one so close. Slipping into romantic relationships, gliding out just as easily, knowing that the other person never had the ability to get close to you in the first place.

Who has that ability? Who can get close to me? No one, but it's okay. Once I realized that I will, in the physical and/or emotional senses, be alone until I cease to exist, I was just fine.

I am happy. My family, my friends; I'm grateful that they're near me, healthy and alive. They mean everything to me. And I am capable of having the occasional fulfilling emotional encounter with someone I'm fucking. Don't misunderstand me; I'm not crying over here. I'm just saying it's a thing I've made peace with, however sad it sounds. I'm always alone, but it's okay.

Mammaries

I always feel a little cheated, the months when I get the soreness but not the swelling.

Idle

I have to move.

Shift. Shake. Slide.

Do something, go somewhere. I feel idle, like stagnant. My surroundings haven't changed in too long. My apartment, my car, my friends.

I need to move.

Why, when everything seems to be going just fine, is there still that first tiny then looming feeling that something's gotta change now before everything falls apart?